The Garden Filled With Weeds

Movie Reviews, ACG and Cosplay Discussion, or just any rambling topics that come to my mind.

Being Imperfect August 17, 2012

Just yesterday(and today) I had a terrible argument with my boyfriend, because he commented that my body size is plump and that he prefers skinnier girls.(which he later realise it was a misunderstanding because he misheard me, but the plump part remains)

Now I have already raged at him and made him regret what he said.

But it made me reflect on somethings.

Every single human being on this planet, would have one or two things they’re unhappy about themselves.

But we know it ourselves too, that we’re suppose to accept who we really are.

It’s easier said than done though.

Before my boyfriend made the comment, I was actually happy with who I am.

I knew I wasn’t perfect of course, but I didn’t mind it that much.

I could walk down the street without feeling ashamed of having a hip that’s way too big, or having my stomach fats showing sometimes when I sit down.

I walk around school everyday seeing girls who have perfect figures, girls who look astonishingly beautiful, but all those didn’t affect me much at all.

I used to believe that unhealthy dieting is wrong, and anorexia/bulimia shouldn’t be promoted or encouraged.

However everything I stood for changed when I heard the comment he made.

The point of this post is not to degrade him, it isn’t even about him, but it’s about me, us, people who are imperfect.

Remember that time when a friend told you about how he/she think he/she’s not good enough? And you tell him/her, accept you for who you are?

It is only when you were pushed into his/her position, then you realise how hard that is.

The media had told us that people have to be skinny to look good, every celebrity looks fucking perfect…

They’re the unattainable goal, and we always want to reach there someday.

After hearing his comments, I wanted to starve myself, do all sorts of stupid stuff because it was really a big blow to my self confidence.

You see, people don’t become anorexic for nothing, it must have been something that made them that way, and that something is the fact everyone is telling them your body is not good enough you need to lose some pounds.

During the contemporary issues lesson we had in school, our teacher told us about size 0 models and how the society is thinking that being thin is better than fat.

Then I went on to research about it, and I found this tumblr blog.

When I looked at it back then I was astonished, this girl is already at her healthy BMI yet she wants to be underweight, I couldn’t understand.

However, now I could.

The owner of the blog had once received a comment from a close friend regarding her weight, and since then she just couldn’t do it and had to make herself lose weight to feel better.

There were many thoughts going through my head after my confidence was crushed, I wanted to go through all the unhealthy methods I heard about losing weight, I wanted to become one of those attention whores I despised and show off my body if I ever did lose weight.

Then a friend told me, “You’re better than that.”

Of course, I despised attention whores, I never supported the idea of unhealthy dieting, but at that moment I became desperate.

The desperation of wanting to become socially acceptable and attractive was overpowering.

I was raised in a family which doesn’t criticize each other’s looks, my mom always told me I was beautiful, she never comments on my weight and always tells me I’m fine.

It’s not the typical Asian families you hear of in stereotypical articles or books.

I remember when I was younger, I was really fat.

A bit less than now but considered really fat.

And all the boys in my class made fun of me, even my crush at that age.

For some reason that didn’t really affect me, perhaps because they aren’t anyone important to me.

There was once when I was dressed in cosplay and a friend commented “nice stomach” sarcastically, and that didn’t bother me too, because he isn’t anyone important.

But when someone important in your life tells you that you aren’t the best in their eyes, things get pretty serious.

When I said I wanted to become an attention whore, it’s not because I am one, but because I kinda feel like these attention people will give me will be able to boost my confidence and I will start to feel happy again.

I mean look at JNig, she gets boys loving her just because her two ladies are always saying hello to the world.

Unfortunately I wasn’t born that lucky my assets aren’t as awesome as her’s.

However when my friend told me that I’m better than that, I agreed, and it made me brush off that idea.

No matter how unconfident I am, if I want people’s respect and not treat me like nothing other than two round sack of fats, I shouldn’t go that way.

I am better than that, I actually have a sense of humour and I actually want people to pay attention to what I have in my mind.

Well still I haven’t given up on the idea of losing a few pounds, after all it is for the greater good, I have a lot of cosplays that won’t look good with that huge lower body of mine.

Maybe not the unhealthy way, but I’ll work on it.

Sorry if this post seems like a rant and too personal to be interesting, I just hope it helps some people who are going through the same thing.


Taobao Wig Shop Reviews – Fantasy Sheep August 14, 2012

This is the post I promised, sorry it’s quite late because I was swimming in assignments recently.

The shops I chose to do on in such posts are the ones I personally bought from several times, and had direct personal experience with.

Disclaimer, I am in no way related to any taobao shops and writing this post does not gain me anything in monatary value, I am simply speaking from a buyer’s POV.

Fantasy Sheep

What’s the first shop any cosplayer would mention when they talk about wigs? Yep that’s right, Fantasy Sheep.

Ratings & Credibility:

The shop have an overall rating of 4 crowns(considered REALLY high).
4.8/5 for how similar the actual item is with the description and pictures.
4.9/5 for the shop owner’s attitude while communicating.
4.8/5 for the speed of the delivery of the item.
The shop had also signed the agreement to make up for any reasonable mistake if the item turned out to have any problems.
And a return policy that will refund you if you return the item in 7 days.
For the past 6 months it received 27173 positive reviews, 31 neutral reviews and 6 negative reviews.

The one thing that made Fantasy Sheep stand out is the wide variety of things they sell, though they specializes in wigs, but they also offer cosplay costumes, make up, wig care products and simply just anything that’s might come in handy for ACG lovers.

Not too long ago the shop introduced the XSP series, which contain a series of basic style wig and pre-styled wigs of varying length, which comes in a specific shades of different colors.

You could also check out the leftover of their previously retired SP series, which contains a variety of basic style wigs.

Like most other wig shops, Fantasy Sheep also have a wide variety of wigs that are pre-styled for the popular series that are often cosplayed.


What is Fantasy Sheep known for? The thickness of their wigs.

Believe me when I say that Fantasy Sheep’s wigs are probably the thickest you can find, however there is a flip side to this.

The fibre is usually slightly more rough compared to the other shops.

I assume that this is because in order to thicken the wigs they’ll have to use a cheaper fibre.

The seller had also explained about why wigs might appear to be of a different color when it reaches you.

One other thing I love about Fantasy Sheep is that the net under the wig is big enough to fit almost anyone.


The wigs they sell are known to be more expensive than other shops.

It’s a bit hard to calculate exactly how much though.

Personal Experience

The first wig I bought from Fantasy Sheep is a blonde 80cm curled wig.

This wig has rough fibre, it tangles pretty easily and the curls come out after some brushing.

How it looked like from the website

How it looked like under normal lighting:

The second time I bought from them it was this American wig that my friend requested.

I don’t have an actual real life picture of this wig, but I can tell you I was a bit shocked that the color came at least two shades darker and it became more like brown than blonde.

I also helped a friend buy a cosplay costume from them before, Stocking’s default Goth Loli costume, the quality was really good and my friend told me she doesn’t feel warm at all even under the hot sun.

This is how it looked like in real life.(Hope my friend don’t kill me,visit her dA 8D)

After that they had the SP series clearance sale(to make way for the XSP series), and I bought two mid-length wigs which would suit my character.

First is the purple one.

Surprisingly the fibre is actually the smooth sort, however the wig wasn’t as thick as the blonde one I had gotten.

The color, using a lousy Nokia camera.

I borrowed the wig to a friend who needed it for a project, and I covered her face in order to protect her identity since she has nothing related to cosplay.

As you can see the end part of the left side  is flipped, I assume that maybe because of the way I stored these wigs.

It doesn’t really affect me because I am going to cut the wig sooner or later.

The other wig I bought was dark neon pink, which I have yet to take it out and try, but it’s of the exact same style as the purple wig.

The color of the actual wig.

I have also gathered some other views I found online about Fantasy Sheep wigs, and I will link them below.

3 Fantasy Sheep Wigs  ~ Buttcape

Two wig reviews-Fantasy Sheep & Arda! ~ Chunlichan (The first wig is from fantasy sheep)

Taobaospree / Fantasy Sheep Review: Positive! -image heavy- ~ dj_sai

Fantasy Sheep wig comparison photos ~ prussianknight

That’s all I have~ I’ll try to post more of such posts and try to help guide the lost


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